identity – the fact of being who or what a person or thing is (noun).
identity. it’s something we all struggle with. we know what the definition of the word “identity” means, but how do we apply that word to ourselves? how do we know who we are, what we are? this leaves us with the question we tend to continually ponder throughout our lives:
who am i?
to be honest, i still don’t know how to answer this question. it’s one of the questions i try my best to avoid if at all possible. because, to be honest, who really am i? i’m emma leitson, but that’s just my name. i could list my hobbies and my talents, but those are just my hobbies and talents. that’s not who i am. yes, those things do make up what i like to do and what i’m good at, but those do not DEFINE me.
let me ask you this:
if you found your name in the dictionary, what would be your definition?
i have thought about this question for a while now. it’s definitely not an easy question to answer. but, if i had to answer it right here and now, this is what my definition would say:
Emma Leitson- child of God (noun).
so, here’s the next question: what does it mean to be a “child of God”? i have been praying about this ever since God gave this phrase to me a few months ago. i can’t exactly give you a definite answer from MY words, but i can give you a definite answer through GOD’S words as it says in the very first book of the bible, “God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them” (Genesis 1:27). He created you and me; we are alive because of Him.
when God gave me the phrase “child of God”, it made me realize that i have absolutely no idea who i am. and that completely broke me because i’ve been going through life and i haven’t taken the time to figure out who i am. but this is EXACTLY why god gave me the words “child of God”: so i can figure out who i am through Him.
it’s funny (as in amazing) the way that God works- the campus ministry i attend called “Freshley” had a miniseries that was actually called “child of God” (and yes, my jaw completely dropped when i found out what the series was called). here are 5 key points of some of the things (from the miniseries) i learned about what it means to be a child of God:
- God will always love you no matter what: you cannot make him love you any LESS or any MORE than he does right now.
- He has given you an identity through Christ as it says in John 1:12-13, “Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.”
- The Lord allows unpleasant seasons for His holiness and righteousness – we have to go through seasons to be children of God.
- You are in the family of God (and how freaking cool is that?). You are loved by the One True King, so STOP and use that love to show the world what God’s love is like.
- BE INTENTIONAL. Open your eyes and your heart to God; allow him to completely work through your life without any hesitation or doubt.
i have learned so much these past months through prayer, teachings, and conversations and i am BEYOND grateful for that. of course, the journey of learning more about who God is (and who i am as well) is FAR from ever being over, but here is the main point i’m trying to make:
You are loved by the greatest love you will EVER receive.
His love is a love that is overwhelming and surpasses all understanding. it is a love that contains grace, joy, and hope. it is a love of truth and perseverance. it is a fatherly love.
and this is when it stuck. this is when i began to grasp what it actually means to be a child of God (and honestly, it’s quite simple): God is my father. a sweet Father filled with compassion, wisdom, and grace. He loves me more than i can even comprehend. no matter what i do, no matter what i say – he holds no record of wrongs: he LOVES me and i could not do anything to change that. He is always pursuing and he will never, ever, ever, EVER stop.
okay so back to the question:
who am i?
i am a child of God: i have been born again in Christ. i am apart of his family- i am His daughter who has been fearfully and wonderfully made. i am loved by the sweetest and the highest of names. i have a purpose because of Him. i am set free. i am His.